HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why does everybody have that i like have to have a link w/ my ex crushes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dahlah aku ni jenis yang susah nak lupakan orang lain!!!!!!! why does everybody reminds me of him!!!!!! shit!! i really hate him right now!!! he stoles my heart than crush it w/out any sympathy,, now,, i'm heartless,,  i love him very much that when i heard love songs, i remember him,, i hate him!! why does he have to give me hope then just crush it and say i'm stupid for believing in him!!!!! he is soooooooooooo stupid!!! and he tells me that he couple dengan musuh ketat aku time birthday aku!!!! he is sooooooooo stupid and i hate him!!! i hate him!! i hate him!!! i hate him!! but i still can't forget how gentleman he is!! i still can't forget his smile,, i love it when he smiles at me,,, why do you have to do this to me?? i hate you!! but,, i love you,, it's difficult to forget you and how i felt towards you,, i miss you,, i miss you smile,, when can i see your smile again??